I wanna lover i dont have to love

himckybam @ 2004-08-26T21:22:00

2004-08-27T04:30:10Z

Wow things are going great getting to see n talk to Ian alot ..... :) Tomorrow I hope I'm staying at Kailas! Woop .... haha Yeah I hung out with Ian today at the mall and Jd Rachel Steven n Sarah .... So funny some guy was comming up to us and saying IM PUNK WHITE POWER LMAO the funniest thing! So awsum ..... I love how me n Ian are taking time to get to know eachother and not rushing ... Its awsum ..... Just today was good and Jd GOOD LUCK ...

Same with you Sarah!

BLAH BLAH BLAH I Hope I can see IAN TOMORROW

YeAH

2004-08-22T09:20:59Z

I think I like him mroe then I should ... We've only known eachother for a few days but still the way he makes me feel .... I really like it .... I think about him and my heart races and I get shacky but all in a good way ... He seems so amazing and certainly worth any wait ... But I shouldnt be feeling like this towards him because we havnt known eachother for that long .... But I lvoe when we talk, getting to know eachother more and more ... Just a great feeling .. It seems like he knows what I want, I lvoe how he bites my lip and my neck and pulls my hair, and just when we hug I feel better ... I wonder if he thinks of me or wonders anything ... I might never know but sometimes not knowing is better

I know I dont make things that easy
Complication is my middle name
Its nots that easy for me
Im so afraid
Can i say sorry
For everything that comes along with me
With all the disappointments
I promise there is something worth keeping
I dont deserve you for a moment
What exactly do you see in me
It must be from the inside
The surface has just deepened
Can I say Im sorry
For everything that comes along with me
With all the diappointments
I promise there is something worth keeping

Fuck Im so emo, I need to quit this, who else agrees?!

himckybam @ 2004-08-18T03:54:00

2004-08-18T10:54:34Z

The whole night is on video so JD n Derek you gotta watch it! AND anyone else who wants to see it!

My BIrTHdAY

2004-08-18T10:52:02Z

Well I woke up at like 2 and had 2 messages ... 1 from Joe Janae and Trevor HILARIOUS! haha Thank you you guys! 2 One from Matt G very interesting kid .......... Then uh at 4 me and Boots went to the mall to look for my Bright Eyes cd! But omg it was 16 dollars so I said forget it! And then we ran into Tj Greg Gavian and other ppls Awsum....

Then me boots n Tj just walked around then left and talked and I got a massage from TJ woop! SARAH WOULDNT GIMME ONE! Anyways... I got home and waited for Janae to pick me up, then at like 7 she got me and we went by the mall and got 20 bucks from Derek ... then we went to Best Buy and I got The Black Dahlia Murder cd and Bright Eyes cd and then we went and picked up Jd n Derek liek ncie people and invited them to hang otu with us...

So we are on the freeway and decide to go to Hillcrest ... and we dont knwo how to get there so we tried finding our way and we ended up as Jd said " WERE IN THE GHETTO " haha nice jd! So him and Derek made us put on a Circle Jerks song and play it LOUD weird boys ... Then we made it to Hillcrest and drove around ... We saw the best thing, some Big white guy with a mullet in a Escalade with spinners jsut DANCIN his heart out at a stop sign LMFAO! Greatest thing ever ......... then Jd said to go to Soma and get in a fight with a bro cause a show was there I guess but never happened went to target instead! we left and went to get food! So we did and we wanted to go to dary road since Jd and Derek have never been there but it was almsot 10 and Jd had to be home at 10 and yeah we dropped him off, and made plans for all of us to go drive up to Disneyland look at it then drive back haha So random

Then we dropped off Derek and me and her drove and I ended up eatting my Lip ring with my food DAMMIT! so the hole is closed up! Have to get it redone! Lame ..... well uhh then we went to go and see JJ and right as we were infront of his house my mom calls and makes me come home so that was SO LAME I WANTED TO SEE THAT SEXY BOY! GRR haha, then I got home and got a new cell phone AWSUM and then talked to JJ on my super cool phone! Haha then we got off and I talked to Matt and he was high interesting kid .... Then yeah Boots is over but on the phoen with Max so blah

All n All My birthday was kick ass got to hang otu with 3 cool people TRIPP JD N DEREK I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD TIME! Downside! Didnt get to see JJ :-(

Note: Brett things will get better I promise!

SieRRA!

2004-08-17T08:51:47Z

Today around 3 Sierra picked me up, and we went to the mall and walked aroudn till our movie started and we saw Jd Julio and Derek .... Then we went to our move and we saw The Village, it could have been a bit better like the ending .... Then we walked around and saw Matt George, Sean and there friend and Matt got hot haha and his friends were too ... crazy ... Then we hung otu with em for a while and Matt was interesting haha He seemed embarressed because he said he was flirting with me ... interesting kid ... Then we left and me and Sierra went bowling! AHH SO GREAT .... SHE FELL DOWN NTHE LANE!!!!! and there was these 3 guys next to us laughing at her and we talked to em once in a hwile and me and sierra would throw 2 balls down to get more pins down to get a higher score haha and they got stuck and we were jsut idiots in bowling shoes!

I loved every minute of it! Then we wait FOREVER to get a ride back to the mall .... Then we went in the movies wo wait and some guy was wearing a shirt that said " I kill goats for satan" and we got FREAKED OUT and I saw Boots awsum! Then the 10 10 showing started we saw Napolean Dynamite ..... Awusm movie We laughed and everone there was so loud and ahh they needed to SHUT UP!! Then we left and it was 12:06 adn Sierra , her mom and Ryan all sang me happy birthday in the car! SO AWSUM! I felt so speical then I got hoem and amber layed out all these papers that spelled out HAPPY BIRTHDAY ..........

Then yeah I talked to Sarah and jsut layed aroudn for a bit now this ... all n all It was A AWSUM DAY WITH SIERRA! Oh yeah Sierra we need to join the league!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY ( AUGEST 17th )

:-/

2004-08-16T16:39:56Z

Yesteray was lame I felt so selfish, I don't know why but when I worry about myself other then others for jsut a little amount of time, I feel so selfish and I feel bad because people have it way worse then I do and I sat in my room thinking about my problems and ugh I don't know nothing really makes sense right now.... But Is is selfish to worry about what I want and need instead of thinking of others and tryingto help?

Boots spent the night, early this morning I felt better a lot better actually.. It was around 6 and we just sat outside it was so calm and peacful and it felt like you had no more worrys and jsut a great feeling .. I don't know if it is because its cold or just foggy, but its so calming and I wish that feeling could stay all day ... then we got inside and layed down and talked about everything, a lot of stupid things, Like the way JJ says Thats SO Gross, Geeze that boy can make me laugh

So many things to laugh at that arnt funny but you laugh at em anyways .... Its just those moments that are the best .... Then Sarah left and I watched some movie called "Margarita Happy Hour" Pretty weird movie! Reminded me of me n sarah for a second then relized our lives would never become that!

Well.. like two people have asked me about LJ... which made me remember it... remember the times I sat here crying over my keyboard about some guy who I was so infatuated with who I new I could never have. I never got him, instead I watched my infatuation deteriorate... watched him become happy.. made me happy.. watched myself fall in love, have my heart broken, and move on... Life goes so fast.. it feels like just a few moments ago I was talking about him Within this website, this pathetic little online journal I revealed my thoughts.... watched myself change.. ignored the change.. and now accept it... I just resurected my old entries and read over them.. how simple and yet complex my thoughts were. But I only saw out of my little hole. Hello my old friend. I have truly missed you

Maybe I jsut think to much .....

himckybam @ 2004-08-15T01:13:00

2004-08-15T08:20:15Z

I forgot ...... On the way home from the movies ( I know Ill prolyl sounds emo and lame and saorry janae I know you hate that word) But we were driving and I look over and there was this boy emo kid looknig and he looked really sad and was walknig on magnolia alone witha backpack......... and I felt really bad so I asked amebr to give him a ride but she said NO! Ugh THANX SEAN! So we just waved hello and he still looked upset! ........... I couldn't help but think , Was he sad, if so why was he sad? Where was he walknig to alone at midnight? Was he scared to just be alone? Did his parents care? Did he even have parents or a home or a place to go? Is he okay now? Did he make it to where he wanted to go alright? ....... I know I must think to much abotu all this stuff but I can't help but think of all these questions I blame perks of being a wallflower, I was never like this until after I read that book I love that book though. It made me wanna cry but I didn't if I had a car I would've picked him up... ugh sometimes I don't know why I cae about someone so much ad worry even though I dont know em never met em or seen em in my life! Just something weird I think about and would like to know!

LaSt PaGe FIrsT

2004-08-15T08:04:01Z

Today wasnt a bad day to be honest! Well this morning was lame because I didn't get to go to JJs house ehh, Then me, boots, my sister went to this church thing. It was fun me and Sarah went straight for the food! Haha then a band came on called Last Page First, SO AWSUM the bassist was so awusm and so was everyone else! So after they were done me my sister went to buy there cd, so I bought a shirt cd picture thnig and they signed it for me haha looks awsm! Yeah I got to talk to em and they are so cool and awsum and they are from New York and hopfully they come back to SD!! Then me and amber went and picked up Brett and we all just walked around....

Then me and Brett ended up having a dance off! We are such great dancers I sware! haha Then me and him challanged amber and sarah to a compition. ... Of course me and Brett won and they lost LOSERS! Then for so long I was jsut dancing and I got in the middle of a crowd and jsut danced! I was jsut goin crazy with dancing! Haha then the bassist (Mike) from LPF came and asked why I didnt dance like that when they played haha but I promised I would next time they came ack down here! haha! Can't wait! Also the guys from the band woo SO HOT! hahaha jsut had to say that! Then we left and me and my Uncle were dancing in the car and sarah wouldnt dance so he kept hitting her LMAO!!

Well I got home and went to the movies with Brett Amber n Sean! We saw Naplian Dynamite (spelling??) Awsum movie, it had no point or anything to it jsut something random but it was funny! I lvoed his dance ..... For people who watch channel 106 who has seen him liek normal ... he is hot! haha So crazy! Well yeah today was pretty awsum but me ad Brett gotta practice our dance!

himckybam @ 2004-08-12T20:14:00

2004-08-13T03:24:50Z

Today was lame and boring so I slept all day, I don't wanna go to High School it alreayd seems like I'm gunna have a bad year and it will suck! I don't know why though I jsut have that feeling but who knows, maybe I'm jsut being melodramatic or something or just stressted I have no clue but I don't wanna care about it right now!

It sucks though, latly I've jsut havn't been happy or anything and it sucks because I'll seem happy but really I'm not, Like pretending, which sucks .......... I wanna go bowling ... Anyone wanna go??!!??

Haha Kaila sent this to me ..... "she's really pretty. i love the way she smiles. but she dress's like she is rebeling against something, maybe her parents. but her stare.. its like someone has tried to kill her. i bet she knows about johnny the homicidial maniac. i doubt i can talk to her, she might mock me since im wearing hollister. well she seems nice when she smiles" ....... That made me laugh!

WEll I don't think I have anything left to say right now

( I wonder if he still likes me )

himckybam @ 2004-08-12T02:12:00

2004-08-12T09:13:01Z

Your Inner Gangsta by crash_and_burn

What is yo name?

Yo gangsta name be

B.B. Bumble B.

You ride around in a

2004 BMW 530

Yo gang

Señor Padre's Las Personas Malas

Yo shoes be

Stiletto heels

Yo dubs be dis big, fool

1,066

How much money you got?

$6.10737013541797e+26

How gangsta are you, bitch?: 36%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

himckybam @ 2004-08-12T02:05:00

2004-08-12T09:05:40Z

This is how a fucking gangsta rolls.. by starlitelily
gangsta name
gangsta job	driver
your fucking problem	you can't read
# of times you ran from the cops	99
your saying	this is how we roll

Quiz created with MemeGen!

himckybam @ 2004-08-12T01:41:00

2004-08-12T08:46:03Z

Only you can make me feel so horrible
Only you can make me wanna cry
Only you can make me wanna feel pain
Only you can make me smile and happy
You are the reason I think bitting necks is romantic
You are the reason I started to like myself
You are the reason I started caring so much
Its because of you I think maybe things will get better!

Yeah I think this is depresstion .... Obiviously nothing can really help

All this sucks I wish I could wake up tomorrow and everything would be okay and I wouldn't have any problems

But I can't ever get what I want, I don't know why though

Blah

2004-08-12T06:13:31Z

Went to the Santee Trolly Center show thing, It got lame bc I got bored and yeah my mom made me leave earily, I got to see and talk to Jessica though, she is awusm...

Well the whole time one thing was on my mind, which was uncool, I feel ignored I don't know why though , weird stuff

ON the BRIGHT SIDE ........ I finalyl found a site where they sell Bright Eyes shrits so Im ordering a couple and some others

EhhHh

2004-08-11T06:27:51Z

I thought I was happy and okay about a lot of stuff, but I know I'm not. I miss him, a lot and I want to see him! I don't know, all this stuff sucks, I started listening to Bright Eyes and I lost happiness so fast and I jsut relized everything about him wasn't okay. I still like him, and everything but, I thought me and him not talknig for a while would be okay then I did talk to him and I felt better but, it jsut doesn't seem to be enough! I don't know why! But this song just tells me all of this isn't okay! But I always have to wonder if he miss's me or if he still likes me, am I jsut over reacting, will I care about this tomorrow? I dunno! This is horrible! I think something is wrong with me besides not being happy .....

himckybam @ 2004-08-08T15:30:00

2004-08-08T22:30:27Z

10, 20, 30, 40
tell me that you wanna hold me
tell me that you wanna bore me
tell me that you gotta show me
tell me that you need to slowly
tell me that yr burning for me
tell me that you can't afford me
time to tell yr dirty story
time f'r turning over and over
time f'r turning four leaf clover

betting on the bull in the heather

10, 20, 30, 40
tell me that you wanna scold me
tell me that you a-dore me
tell me that you're famous for me
tell me that yr gonna score me
tell me that you gotta show me
tell me that you need to sorely
time to tell yr love story
time f'r turning over and over
time f'r turning four leaf clover
betting on the bull in the heather

ShoW

2004-08-08T08:08:48Z

ME and boots went to the Career Soilders show, OMG Jake has the hottest legs I've ever seen! Well we got there and I saw DANNY i havnt seen in forever he got skinnier, and Jd and Julio and TRacy and my cosuin Kaila. So we jsut sat outside till they came on, it was kinda boring but fun, I saw LIL Joey, wow he has changed a lot! but he is still cool.

Then Kaila had me go inside with her and grabbed me and said were going in the pit so I jsut went with her, and Jd was so ncie and punched me in the face 2 times THANX JD LOVE YA TO! haha Idk but my body hurts haha its alright though, and Kaila your braclet stabbed me in the neck! Then it was over and me joey sarah , sarahs NEW boyfriend and this guy walked around .....

I got bored so I called JJ and talked to him for a while , hopfully we get to hang out tomorrow! Yeah then sarah came and i had to call him when I got home , then we left after a little bit and then went to in n out adn I got home and I called JJ but got his answering machine *sad face* Yeah thats pretty much it!!

Oh yeah everyone says IM HORNEY hahaha it was funny! I won't be horney when I get through with JJ hahahaha JK! hahaha

himckybam @ 2004-08-06T01:51:00

2004-08-06T09:05:19Z

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Jacket
2. Black tight pants
3. Bra

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1. A bunch o dvds
2. Cds
3. Snapple bottle

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Be on Degrassi / meet somone on the show
2. Be really happy with a guy I like
3. See Bam and Ville kiss

THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1. Hyper
2. Pretty cool
3. Caring

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY:
1. Low self esteem
2. Noisey sometimes
3. Jelious

THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Irish
3. French

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY:
1. Eyes
2. Nothing
3. Nothi

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY:
1. Legs
2. Stomach
3. Everything basically

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME:
1. I think it is hot when to guys make out
2. I don't like myself
3. Uh Don't know

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. Lame
2. Ugh
3. Hahaha

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO:
1. Heavan
2. Canada
3. In Jake Epsteins pants

THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY:
1. Jordan
2. Maf
3. Asshole

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD:
1. HotDamn817
2. Hineygorerage1
3. StopHateViolence

himckybam @ 2004-08-05T03:24:00

2004-08-05T10:24:51Z

||-->>AM I...<<--||

1)Ugly?

2)Kind?

3)Quiet?

4)Loud?

5)Shy?

6)Weird?

7)Selfish?

8)Ghetto?

9)Crazy?

10)Hot?

11)Cute?

12)Pretty?

13)Sexy?

14)Nice?

15)Mean?

16)Immature?

17)Rude?

18)Cool?

19)Brat?

20)Stupid?

21)Caring?

22)Mature?

23)A friend?

24)More than a friend?

25)Talkative?

26)Boring?

27)Beautiful?

28)Creative?

29)Smart?

30)A flirt?

31)Slutty?

32)A psycho?

33)Athletic?

34)Confusing?

35)Sweet?

36)Mood swings?

37)Attractive?

38)Annoying?

39)Funny?

40)Laid back?

41)Perfect?

||-->>**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**<<--||

1. What is my phone #?:

2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?:

(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?:

3. When is my birthday?:

4. Who is my best friend?:

5. Where did we meet?:

6. Have you ever had a dream about me?

7. If you could change one thing about me what
would it be?:

8. Describe me in 5 words...

9. Do u think I'm a virgin?:

10. If u could tell me one last thing what would
it be?:

11. If u could ask me anything..what would it be?:

||-->>**PERSONAL (OPPOSITE SEX ONLY)** <<--||

1. I am the ___________ person you know

2. Would u like to kiss me?:

3. Do you want to be my bf/gf?:

4. a) Do u ever think about me offline?:

b) On a scale of 1-10 (10 being high), how much do
you think of me each day?:

5. a) Would you ever ask me out?:

b) Right now, what is the chance of that
happening?:

6. a) Have you ever had a crush on
me?:

b) Do you still?:

||-->>**EVERYBODY**<<--||

1.Do u wish we were closer?:

2.State here your completely honest opinion of me:

3.Tell me one thing about yourself you have never
told me before

SAy yOUr gOOdBYEs nOW

2004-08-05T02:49:59Z

ugh My mom is weird ... I sware parents are suppsoed to trust there kids okay! I know maybe they should'nt because of things, but still it's just nice and respectful. Ah, i don't even get a chance of it. Whatever, not even going to worry about it. Well, Brett and I talked last night and I was working on my "not telling him things I should problem" So yeah, I think it is working wonderfully! Well yeah today was lame. This summer has been a cruse but sorta not. Eh well yeah nothing else to say.

eHhHHH

2004-08-04T01:15:16Z

Uhh didnt do much lay around and watching movies one was rele lame and made no sense it was called 'keep er of souls" Yeah at like 3 I went and go new shoes ... then got home and watched degrassi its been like a wee since ive watched how shameful and my retarded throat still hurts ahh! its driving me insane! ugh!! ahhh

Hightlight of today! I got my stuff from PETA and woo the stickers are so awsum!! haha its cool and i got a cool poster to! and all this other stuff !!! but raymond and keith found the stuff with the crulty of animals so insanely cool ... how lame! oh yeah i saw cody interesting fellow

himckybam @ 2004-07-31T20:47:00

2004-08-01T03:48:23Z

DO THIS woop

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

8. Do you love me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

13. Emotionally, what stands out?

14. Do you wish I was cooler?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. Am I loveable?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

23. Do you think I'll get married?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?

28. How well do you know me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?

32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?

33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

WiSDom TEeTH

2004-07-29T06:14:04Z

Well this morning i woke up at like 6 30 7 then yeah at 8 .. i got there and it was weir d I saw Brian there!! So awum haha and yeah they had my lay down and walk me thorught what yuey were gunna do. Then they put a clamp on my anvle and strapped down my legs and then a clamp o my right wrist and straped down my arm ...... So yeah i started to get a lil freaked!

Then they hooked me up to a heart monator and stuck the IV in my hand / writs area, and starting druggng me up and i sat there for a bit .. and i looked at the heart thnig and when ever I moved it woudl get all mest up and squiggly the ngo to normal so i kept moving it ... it was hilarious at the time! Then the guy said okay im gunna give u more and more medication .. youll get relaxed and wont care for it and yeah he put in like 5 surenges of stuff and i thought wow i am rela then passed out

Then I just woke up and it was over with , which was awsum.. And I looked in the mirror and my mouth ws covered in blood and when i drank or ate anything it tasted like blood and it was ansty and when I ws at home I was so moddy and grumpy! And I slept most of the day then felt a lil better and the bleedig stopped and I called Sarah, and took all my medication they are givign me so much! I can feel my fce still !!

Tripp is awum! Atreyu show I think Puff's gonig to and yeah! woo! Jd needs to get on soon to I can tell him I got the goods lmao! Funny stuff! ........ Yeah I wanna call JJ but eh idk if he wants to talk to me .. SO yeah

himckybam @ 2004-07-28T01:01:00

2004-07-28T08:02:32Z

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, an appology, a fear, a love, a hatred anything.Be sure to post anonymously and honestly.Post twice if you'd like.Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

LaLAllAaa

2004-07-27T21:23:10Z

blah blah blah life sucks ..... everyone has sumone they like but dont feel the same and doesnt think they ever find the right one! ahhhhhhh! wtf ... ppl wanna be in love .. when rele when u think about it ... what also cums with lvoe and more of that cums outta it then happines ............ pain regret tears .. ect! Well tomrrow i get my wisdom teeth pulled its gunan suck im scared ughh so yeha ill be out for a week to yeha ..... w/e

himckybam @ 2004-07-25T19:18:00

2004-07-26T02:19:34Z

(you)

Full name: Jordan Michelle Fejeran
DOB: Augest 17th, 1889
Sex: Vagina
Zodiac sign: Leo! OH EYEAH
Location: Santee California.
Nickname(s): Maf, Asshole, Jordy i hate that one!
Hair color: idk
Eye color: Hazel
Height: 5'sumthing
Weight: not telling.
Tattoo's/piercing's: plugs and my lip
Thing you like most about your body: eyes
Straigt/bi/gay: straight but can be bi
Best friend: Boots
Screen name: HotDamn817
What your screen name means: Cds name for etid .. But I also said it before I new it was there cd title
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Shoe size: umm guys or girls but im a 9 in girls

(have you ever)

smoked?: ya
drank?: FUCK YES!
had sex?: yeah
made out with someone?: ya
broken the law?: ya
stolen something?: ya
cursed at your parents?: ya
been arrested?: ya
done drugs?: yes
cut yoursef: yeah
thought about suicide?: o yeah!
been in a mosh-pit?: yeah
kissed someone of the same sex?: yepp
cheated on someone?: no .. haha im loyal
been to a show?: ALL THE TIME!

(your clothes/fashion)

shoe brand(s): vans n e other and sean will get angery!
favorite article of clothing: haha my GO JARED shrit it looks awsum
make-up you wear: eye liner white cover up and lip gloss
nail color: black

(favorites)

saying: You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say its bc I deserve better
color: black lime green yellow
number: 1, 7 , 17
time of day: night time
season: autumn
TV show: degrassi
food: mmmm?? i dont like food
band: depends
superhero: SUPERMAN!!!
Holiday : My birthday
Drink: THE AMBER!
Book: Perks of being a wallflower
Ceral: don’t eat the stuff
Dessert: don’t eat t either
Disney show: Even Stevens and Boy meets World
Past time: um Memories at lil joeys house
Teacher: Mr Franka
Candy bar: Whatcha ma call it
Memory: When my cousin pooped his pants at school when he went to fart on Matt LMAO!

(the opposite sex)

hate most about them : they suck most of the time .. and the main reason for heartache
what do you notice first about the opposite sex? eyes n hair and how there legs look in tight pants
best hair color?: dark
best eye color?: green or blue
best height?: taller then me
personality traits you look for: trust nice caring sweet can make me smile
biggest turn-on(s)?: touching and tight pants
turn-off(s)?: self ish / ignores me

(religion/beliefs/opinions)

Unicorns: yeah
Aliens: oh yeah!
God: yeah
How do you feel about abortions: Its kinda confusing
Believe there is real happiness: NO!
Believe in ghosts: yeah! Hello one lives in my house!
Believe in love at first sight: mm no

(love/relationships)
have you ever been in love?: i believe i WAS
describe your first kiss: haha oh geeze
if your single, why do you think that is?: Ima ugly n fat and ngfklshfteo;
why do you like him or her?: Jared : because everytime i think of him it makes me smile and wish i coudl see him .. hes so sweet and beautiful and caring and not afraid to cry! can make me smile without even trying... makes me feel better about myself, funny, it idnt JUST his looks that make him so hot and beautiful ( but he is the hottest thing ive ever seen) its how he is and who he is.. its wonderful!!
JJ : I known him for a long time and he is really great and funny and interesting haha its just great!
how much do you like this person?: Jared : a lot … JJ : Ill know when I know how he feels
how much do you think this person likes you on a scale from 1-10?: I dunno … hopfully sumwhere good!!
could you see yourself getting married to this person?: haha umm I don’t think that far ahead!
how about having kids with him/her?: haha don’t think that far ahead either
do you think this person is 'hott'?: both : yep
how long have you liked him/her?: Jared : for a while … JJ : since 7th grade
How many people have you said I love you to: Umm and ment it .. ?
How many people have you been in REAL love with: Umm idk if me and Jds weird sewing joke PR love counted hahaha!! Good times cant wait to sew with you Jd!
How many people have you kissed: haha who knows!
How many people have you dated:: I don't know umm that I can remember 11
What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: mmm idk how to put in without sounding shallow
Do you believe in soul mates: No … I have a different opinion on that

(who was the)

last person you saw? my sister
last person you talked to?: on aim Josh in person my sister
last person who called you?: Sarah
last person you called? JJ
last person to disappoint you? No one
last person to break your heart?: Steven
last person who made you cry: my lip ring haha
last person you fought with?: uhh
last person who made you really smile?: Jared
last person to brighten your day?: JJ
last person who turned you down?: meaning made me sad .. Uhh sumone

(when was the)

last time you kissed/made out with someone?: mmm
last time you had sex?: umm i think February
last time you took a shower?: this morning
last time you cried?: yesterday
last time you went to a mall: dunno
last time you smoked?: this morning
last time you drank?: yesterday
last time you went to a movie: two weeks ago
last time you felt really, truly happy?: yesterday

(right now)

how do you feel?: mm okay
what are you wearing?: pants bra shirt jacket socks
what are you eating?: nothing food is gross
what are you thinking about?: if hes mad at me
what are you listening to?: Bright Eyes : Lover I don’t have to love
what are you doing?: this
what are you touching?: keyboard
name one thing that you can see right now: my aim windows blinking
the date: July 25th I think

(music)

What song do you swear was written about you or your life: not rele sure
What's the most embarrassing cd you own: Why qould I buy a cd and be embarrassed by it?
What's the best cd you own: MmMmM I dunno
What song do you absolutely hate: haha this song my dad plays all the time! And it drives me crazy but I sing alogn with it anyways
Do you sing in the shower: no
What song reminds you of that special someone: Bright Eyes - Lover I don’t have to love and it reminds me of Jared

(Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits)

What color are your sheets: don’t amtta soon to be leopard
What color are your bedroom walls: oh my dotn talk about it but im repainting them
Do you have posters on your wall: yeah! A lot
If so of what: HIM (1), Cky (3), Bam (1), Adicts (1), Superman (1), Harry Potter ( 8 or 9)
Do you have a tv in your bedroom: yeah
How many pillows are on your bed: umm 4 or 5
What do you normally sleep in: whatever I wore that day ha
Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: Don’t got one
What size bed do you have: A normal one?
Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed:: Regular bed
Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom:: Nope, too bad huh.
Describe the last nightmare you had: My life is a nightmare
Do you sleep with stuffed animals:: Nope
How many people can comfortably sleep comfortably in your bed: um 2 haha me and sarah!
Any unusual sleeping positions: I dunno what is unusual …. But I sleep with half my body hanging off my bed sumtimes or my legs up on my wall its weird
Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: Um just my sister but its awsum
Do you snore: no
How about drool: no
Do you have an alarm clock in your room:: Yes
What color is the carpet in your room: Green
What's under your bed: drawrs

(Childhood Stuff)

Did you own Treasure Trolls: yeah
Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210: no
Did you play Simon Says:: Yeah, all the time.
Did you watch Fraggle Rock: ?
Did you wet the bed: I dunno
Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them: yeah!
Were you shy:: Still am.
Were you spoiled:: No
Were you abused:: Depends on what you call abuse, if it's hitting and shit like that no, if it's by not being payed any fucking attention, then YES!
Did you go to the zoo:: Many, many times.
Were you in a car accident:: Not yet.
Did you build snowmen:: Nope, I wish I fucking could have.
Did you cry when you scraped your knee:: Yes, but I was little so it's okay, right? Haha.
Were your older cousins mean to you:: Sometimes.
Did you think slinkies were cool:: Yes! And still fucking do!
Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer: OMG yes!
Were you afraid of the dark: nope
do you have slumber parties: napes
Did you have New Kids on the Block sheets, pillows, pajamas, sleeping bag?: who?

Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany:: Say what?! I've never heard of that before, so no.
Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy: nope